So recently Barry and I have been hit with extreme financial strain, i know what newlywed can't say that but to us it seems like no matter what we do we can't seem to get a head. I am trying to stay positive for the both of us because i know how much this financial strain is killing Barry, i usually just smile and forget about it for the moment because i would rather be happy. I believe that my strain comes out in the weirdest ways. Like when i am watching a show that has to do with babies or weddings or something like that, or when i see babies being born to my friends it just reminds me of how much i really want to be a mom so i have a little girl to cook with or so Barry has a little boy to show things to. I mean i know it will all come when it is supposed to but i can't help but think that. I love my husband with all my heart and my friends even those i am not friends with anymore and i hate to see it when they are hurt or are in some kind of pain. Lately it has been quite emotional and i tend to listen to music when i am stressed, and i have been listening to a lot of music. I have also been hit with a weird strain of a cold and i hate that at least when i had my tonsils i knew what was ailing me but now i never know and that frustrates me. I am the type of person that likes to know what is going on at all times.. Even when i am asleep i believe i still know what is going on when i wake up.
Barry and I moved to a new apartment and it is bigger but it also comes at a bigger price, but i guess that is what happens when u want somewhere bigger. Other than that life is good.. just living it one day at a time :)